Thinking about size and shape.

For the first three weeks after baby was born, I was sewing up a storm. She was sleeping when she wasn´t eating and I was happy to be able to sew clothes that weren´t maternity wear. But the last week or two, she´s been sleeping less and crying more so I´ve been spending less and less time in my sewing room. Not in the least because exhaustion of nursing 15 times a day is wearing me down and I just want to lie on the couch. Nothing wrong with that 5 weeks post partum but it´s not really what I want to do.

Obviously, lying on the couch, you start thinking. (My husband constantly tells me that I shouldn´t think as much, but being a woman, that´s an impossible thing to ask.) I started wondering why clothes I really liked making or really liked on others, like my latest Linden, didn´t make me look like I wanted them too. I couldn´t pinpoint the problem.

Until Jodi wrote about her Linden. It really got me thinking about the stuff I want to sew because I like the look and the stuff I end up wearing and feeling good in. Those things don´t really match.

For instance, I absolutely adore Grainline Studio patterns. I love the relaxed look of their designs but they never end up looking as good on me as they do on other people. Reading about Jodi´s Linden made me realise that the way I view myself when I plan clothes and the way my body looks is totally different. Up until now my goal was to sew clothes that made me look like I did when I was 18.

I wish I hadn´t thrown out that dress!

But I´m not 18 anymore. I´ll never look like that again and that´s okay. My 30th birthday is coming up, I´ve had 2 kids, nobody expects me to look like I did back then. Nobody but me.

I realised that there is a big difference between looking skinny and looking good. I´ll never be as skinny as I was back then, but I can still look that good, even with a few extra pounds (or 40).


Everyone would agree that the girl above isn´t skinny but I would kill to look that good. I told my husband about this and he totally agrees. He thinks I look good whatever size I am and he doesn´t get what all the fuss is about. He´s a sweetie 🙂

So from now on I´m done focusing on looking skinny, I´m going to focus on looking good. And feeling great along the way!

Does this mean I´m going to stop sewing Lindens? Ofcourse not, they´re soooo very comfy but I´m no longer going to feel disappointed that I don´t look like a perfect size 0 wearing them. I´m going to accept my body as it is, although I still want to lose the extra baby weight 😉

What does this imply for my sewing? I went through my old blogposts and thought back about all makes that I ended up really loving and wearing to death. Here´s a small selection:

It´s clear that I like dresses and I like wearing belts to accentuate my waist (which is my smallest part), so I should just focus on sewing and wearing those. I like skirts as well, but I have to avoid high waisted and/or gathered skirts because they add bulk to my tummy area and stop right below my boobs… They really make me look like a fat toddler 🙂

It´s time I started showing off my hourglass shape!




Dieting 101: Need your help :)

Hi guys,

Thanks so much for your feedback about cutting into my fabric. I’ve decided to ‘get over myself’ and use my pretty fabrics now, because there will always be more fabric and who am I kidding, I won’t be able to resist them anyway.

But that’s not why I need your help. Between juggling work, household, a baby and a house under construction, I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed.

Last week I decided to go on a diet. The weight has been creeping up on me slowly for the last years. And now I want to lose it. I already bought a second hand crosstrainer to be able to exercise at home (cause I haven’t got time to hit the gym). I don’t want to lose the weight fast, but I want to keep it off.

And that’s where you come in. I need your tips, tricks, recipes. Because that’s where I feel overwhelmed. I like food, I like filling, tasty dishes and there seem to be a lot of nice recipes out there but you now the thing with the trees and the forest.

I just don’t know where to start. I want healthy food, I want easy, tasty food and above all, I want food that my husband will eat as well, because I’m not cooking two dinners!

So if you know anything at all… Please share!

The One with the Wardrobe Malfunction

In the last two weeks I’ve realised two major things:

1. My wardrobe is completely unfit for breastfeeding. I’ve got two dresses which are slighty breastfeeding friendly but that’s it.

2. Although I’m almost back to my pre-pregnancy size I’ve still got a few inches to go. Apart from that I’ve gained quite a few kilos over the past 5 years and they’ve never made me feel good about myself. Combine that with my new role as a mother and the fact that I’m on the wrong side of 25 and we’ve got grounds for a serious wardrobe/identity crisis.

I’ve shed quite a few tears about this in the past two weeks, maybe more than was necessary but I blame the hormones and lack of sleep.

When I started thinking about a new wardrobe I was a bit overwhelmed and didn’t know where to start. That’s why I’m happy the Wardrobe Architect Series kicked in. I know I’m late to the party, but only fashionably late 🙂 I’ve already caught up with the series but I won’t overload you with all three weeks at once.

The Wardrobe Architect

Stay tuned for the update!